Its done.

Perhaps I should go away for a bit, clear my head. But I have deleted my initial post (for those of you who didn't read it, it remains better you didn't, and for those who did, I am sorry for emo-tripping out on you) and perhaps the only way to deal with it is to let it go.





Letting go.





Easier said than done, that.





Still, today, no emo-tripping. I am done. My night was a cold one, and dragging myself out of bed was impossible, so today, just today, I am going to enjoy my self-imposed holiday and when Monday rolls along, I will be fine. I will be Me again.



(I will also be able to face her and just aloofly not care. Read about it here)



And now, to bring to you the best parts of my life (because I am trying this thing called optimism):


Helping a friend find a present

Bra-man, and his GF of 3 years (yes, THREE years!) LM, are the sweetest couple ever, IMHO. Despite his crazy, pervy ways, Bra-man is a genuinely good guy, and LM is a great, funny and smart person, and man, they're both really cute together XP.

Opposites, but somehow soul mates. Lol. Really sweet.

Anyways, wanting to get her something special, Bra enlisted the help of me, MZ, J and K to help buy her a pair of GOLD EARRINGS. GOLD, baby, GOLD.

Now, I myself personally do not like gold (I prefer silver or platinum with semi-precious stones, I never did fancy diamonds despite their hype, I think they lack character) but I know ooodles and ooodles of girls out there do.

So Bra said 'lets go Poh Kong' and I said, yeah, cool idea, they've got their Tranz line which is affordable and looks quite nice.

So off we trooped, and debated (I was all for girly butterflies/hearts, though in the end, I can see how a more subtle and unique pattern would fit the 'special occasion' tag) and he bought her a lovely pair of earrings, also sponsored by K and V.

So sweet, really. So LM turns 21, (on Sunday) and so HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(fanfare!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Sticking up for a friend

And not regretting a moment, except for the fact that I should have stuck up for him sooner. (link above)

Having been attacked needlessly, simply for being at the wrong place at the right time (he was sitting straight in her line of fire) and for being shouted at unfairly, I feel that sticking up for him is definitely the right thing to do.

K and me, we got pissed off for several reasons: one, she was directly attacking our friend for no reason, two, she lost control and lied, denied and shouted. Too much. TOO MUCH!

Cannot believe he kept cool while I lost my head completely. But for my part, I know why I lost it: and its not because she is a lousy lecturer (though she IS) but well, because. Because.

K and J are right; I can never keep my cool. But it no matter, I mean, I would fight tooth and nail and claw for a friend. It was worth it. Like I said, I only regret not sticking up for him sooner.


Being a good friend

Is perhaps, the only way to go. To be there ready at hand when they need notes and help, to lend a listening ear (and sometimes plain intrude in their lives in your concern), to be someone fun to hang out with, to be able to be depended on. To be able to laugh and have fun, as well as work and share problems together.

Friendship; to be somebody important to someone.

Being a friend, I think I know how to do that.

I've never really had them before till a few years back, so forgive me for being 17 years rusty. Haven't had much practice in this dept., so I will never be able to know what is a friend, and what is more than a friend, or even what is not a friend at all.

But I think, if you genuinely care for someone, is willing to help (though you're not very good at it), is ready to help, and do not mind doing things and favours and share some great times together, that is friendship, I think.

When you can talk all day, and enjoy each other's company, thats friendship.

I don't know much, but I know that perhaps friendship has to be enough. Because sometimes thats all there is to it. :)






I am on a mission.


A mission to save me from myself. It starts now.